God And Games - Part 3: Embracing the Future

Humans have been creating their own universes since we first painted upon a cave wall the reflections of the world as we saw it. Now eons later, on this solitary world, a blue ball of water in a vast ocean of darkness, there are countless worlds created and shared by us all. The worlds we can now explore seem to be as endless as our own imaginations.

The past is also a world of its own. We can piece together enough to try to and explore it and learn from it. But the most tantalizing of the worlds we can attempt to explore is the future. Through prophecy, the ancients attempted to explore this elusive world. Yet prophecy has never been able to actually predict or create the future, at best, only attempt in vain to destroy it.

Through exploring the world of the past, we see that dire predictions of the world's destruction are the most common prophecies. These prophecies never came true. The world changed and became new but did not cease to be.

Through creation, the future is built, and through imagination we can create. We truly do not know what the future holds, but that means we can imagine the possibilities.

It can be an overwhelming freedom that frightens some into staying within the boundaries of what we already know, but even if we never leave our world, one day our children will. They will leave the world we know and venture to worlds unimaginable by us.

Indeed, somehow on one particular of this myriad of imagined worlds I even managed to find the woman I love and we managed to create a new world as well as a new life together.

There is a sadness when we leave a world behind to journey somewhere new. A part of ourselves will always remain there and no matter where we go or what we do we will never be able to get it back. As you keep exploring you will surely find joy again... and probably sadness again too, but that's how the journey goes as you walk toward the future.

As I bring my daughter into what I now realize is a boundless world, I cannot help but want to embrace a future where she can stand upon my shoulders and see farther than I could possibly imagine and imagine farther than I could ever dream.

 And I will pass down the controller to her so she might visit those worlds that once inspired me and take with her to the future to explore whatever worlds lie beyond.

<3

God And Games - Part 2: Escaping Eternity

Though the world of Xenosaga is set 4000 years in the future, the traumas of the past still enslave those who inhabit it. Technology has advanced to the point where people can create and do anything they desire, but the chains of human nature still bind all of this wonder in seemingly eternal tragedy.

At the heart of this world's technology is the Unus Mundus Network that connects all of mankind throughout the entire star cluster, enabling faster than light travel and communication. The kind of technology that can make our dreams come true can unfortunately bring to life our worst nightmares with the same precision.

Death and despair are still very much a part of this future, as is the struggle for power and control over others. Yet there is no escape or rest, even for the dead, now that man has begun to manipulate consciousness itself, finding ways to more or less enslave the souls of the dead through technology.

Organ donors are revived as corporate cyborgs. Artificial humans known as 'Realians' are infused with enough consciousness to provide labor and fight wars for their creators. Violent criminals are rehabilitated by rewriting their consciousness to 'repair' their flaws.

Eternity is often thought of as a blissful dream or tortuous nightmare, repeated endlessly. I believe this concept of eternity can break us and transform us into beings who cannot believe in a new beginning, because we cannot conceive of the end. Within this mindset, the future lies in the past and we consciously or unconsciously imprison ourselves indefinitely, repeating the same mistakes over and over.

We are so fearful of the unknown that we cannot embrace our future, opting instead to remain in our eternal prison of reassurance. The stagnant light blinds us to the wonders of the darkness. Yet, the clockwork machinery of our fabricated reality is as fragile and broken as the minds that have created it. In the midst of this inevitable destruction, some may choose to be assimilated once again into the mangled machine of eternal recurrence. 

For others, the illusion subsides just long enough for us to escape eternity and find our way to tomorrow.

God And Games - Part 1: Reflections on a Broken Mirror

When I delve down the rabbit hole of philosophy, there are a few games I always think about. These 'Xeno' games share many of the same developers, who are well known for creating science fiction stories laced with heavy influences from western judo-christian religion.

This series of posts will be a spoiler free reflection on each game and my take on its philosophical themes. I'd only recommend reading this if you have an open mind when discussing philosophy and religion, and the same goes if you plan to play and fully enjoy these games.



 Religion and the idea of God have been stained by so much blood and pain throughout our history, it can be hard to look underneath it all and see the reality of our journey with the concept, which is why I truly love games like this. They encourage you to think objectively, and attempt to understand anew through the eyes of fictional characters.




As a young man living in the bible belt, I grew up with a thirst for answers the religions surrounding me could never provide. I bought this game shortly after I began my career in computer technology. As, I played, the story seemed to weave together the broken threads dangling in my heart and mind of the nature of man, machines and God.

Though it contains one of the most intricate creation myths ever fabricated, at its heart, Xenogears is a love story.  At first glance, a love story of just two people, but more deeply, a story of how creating connections through love can create meaning in a world where finding meaning seems impossible; a world where we must shatter the reality of everything we once believed in order to truly see the world as it really is.

The overall theme of the game and especially the songs, Star of Tears and Small Two of Pieces, from the game's soundtrack, seem to echo inspiration from mankind's own journey with the concept of God. The characters eventually learn the true nature of the God of their world, and must come to terms with that reality in order to save the lives and the planet of those they love.



 As for our own journey as I see it so far, we met God in the mist of morning, in our infancy as a species, creating a reflection of our own image to place our hopes and dreams in. As we discovered the darkest waters of space and our unfathomable loneliness in its deep, unending night, we began to part ways. God was silent as we looked down at the world, peaceful and still from afar. We realized that even if we believed God could possibly meet us halfway, he was still farther away than we could ever imagine.


Many of us are not sure where our journey with God can go from here, though our hearts still long to find God and to find meaning in our existence. At the edge of this dark water, we are left with the broken sword of spirit, the shattered shield of faith and tears of God that never fell, but will always run through our own hearts, for better or worse.

As we grow and change, as does our reflection.  A broken mirror is considered a horrible omen, but it’s the most honest reflection of ourselves, our universe, but most especially, our God we will ever see. God has never really died. He has only been shattered. We just pick up the pieces and create the reflection anew, as has been done throughout the history of civilization.

That reflection may echo who we are at this moment in time, but no matter how hard some try to solidify this reflection, cracks will appear and eventually, new generations will once again try to repair their own shattered souls with the pieces left behind by our ancestors.

Thank you for reading and I hope you look forward to the rest of this series!

Coming soon...
Part 2 - Escaping Eternity (Xenosaga)
Part 3 - Embracing the Future (Xenoblade Chronicles)